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[31 Oct 2004|10:55pm] ( pictures ) and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

[31 Oct 2004|10:52pm] ( pictures ) and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

[31 Oct 2004|10:49pm] <lj-cut text="pictures <3" http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v416/lovepotion/conor%20oberst/conor27.bmp> and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

i cant expect you to spend forever with mee </3 [22 Sep 2004|04:50pm] [ mood | high ] [ music | nirvana-drain you ] hey, i didnt update yesterday..idk know why i didnt feel like it i guess lol im lazy anywhoos my day was..ok dude in math mr.lowell kept callin on me and i didnt know the answers and i didnt even know who to get those dumb answers....dude i felt so stupid. then he gave us a problem with smileys how werid. lol..then ahh nothing happended all day after school i had to wait for mom, i was standing with ashleigh and ashley and that chick thats in my b lunch. lol..and there was a hott dude he was hott lol..and florenzo came up to me and was talking to me n so did alex..heh i told flo how alex always talks shit about jugalos and flo...and flo was like what???? bitch lol it was funny..he is cool. him n tabi make a nice couple. um i made alex walk me to moms car and mom was like hii alex! and alex said hi ms.louden. and then when he was  walking away mom was like bye alex..and alex said bye. um then we went to amys school to pick her up. i was staring at all the kids n i saw valarie n i pointed to her and she was like hii..lol ..then i went to the doctors and guess what yall...i only  have 3 days to live =(..lol im just kidding dont you wish i  was gonna die in three days?? lol..but anyway IM VERY HEALTHY YAY! LOL AND I GOT A STICKER!!!!! LOL..yea then we came home i think im goin with mom n amy n dad to back to school night but i duno yet.. lol..i might stay home n smoke..a few..yea..well ok buh bye <33 you dude isnt that smiley neeat? lol and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

yay [20 Sep 2004|09:04pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | blue burns orange-hawthorne heights ] hey there well..today was pretty good. but omfg was it cold.anyway i was falling asleep in math..i couldnt keep my eyes opened i was so sleepy. and im sleepy now too..lol well after math i had spanish and that was boreing then i had music that was boreing then i had lunch that was boreing then i had english that was boreing and extra long ick. and it was cold..well i stayed after for field hockey today,bc tabi wanted me to so ill have my psyhical wednesday so ill be on the team by thursday..wha hoo. well while tabi was practiceing with her team i was talking to flo for like her whole practice..it was funny he is so funny. they look so cute together! he died his hair bright red! whoa!. um..he is buying me my cigarettes so by tomorrow ill have them yay! for me lol. well then after that practice was just about over. and yea..we talked to her mom and her mom drove flo and we took him to dawns house then left we went to shoppers. rebecca n her friend brought puppy to the feild. so when they were in shoppers me n tabi had to watch puppy..=(. then we went in when rebecca n her friend came out tabi said hi to tripps mom it was funny. his mom looked at her werid.lol. then ummmm we went back to her house and got courts gay ass pants. then tabi got introuble bc i was there n she is punished her dad is so mean. then me n ashleigh went outside and played hacky sack. how fun. then ashleigh pierced my ears for me.then..um i went home,made dinner,came back n saw alex imed me he said "sorry for about the other day"..yea i bet he is sorry im so very very mad at him!. oh well he dosnt care...and i went to petco n office depot with mom...OMG I MIGHT BE GOING WITH ASHLEIGH TO SE HAWTHORNE HEIGHTS!!!!!!!!! omfg yay!!! ahh yay!!! lol..how fun is that!! yay!! wha hooo...lol...um i think im done <33333 and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

bad day again [19 Sep 2004|07:37pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | ryan cabrera-yesterdays gone ] ok.this morning i woke up to mom yelling again,god im starting to hate that bitch again..well she was yelling saying you two bitchs get up!! you have to do work!!..and i was like fuck you im not doin anything for you until your nice again,i didnt say it to her i mumbled it to my self..then um i got up and i did the dishs and i put to plates in the sink n the water splashed up on me..ick..and it got on the floor so i leaned against the thing to wipe it offmy leg n pinched my finger in the drawer =(.n then i spilled the cookies like i nocked them off the thing..and ovcourse mom got mad. so then aunt cheryl calls and says do you wana come mow my lawn n ill give you 20 dollars..i didnt want to bc i hate mowing the lawn but mom made me...so i went..im so bad at mowing the lawn to..well then i get done have to redo it then i come home with my money go to my computer n see. that alex's lil gf i guess im'd me n said you like my boyfriend..thats lame i dont even know if i like him anymore. i mean he dosnt seem to like or want to talk to me an i fight with him alot. bc he says i dont care about whatever he says..yet i do, i jus get sick of hearing all about cossondre all the time. it gets annoying. anywho after that i was talking to the coolest dude ever joshua shank..then i went to the store with mom, i got a new hair brush hair clippys n gum n MME N JOSHS M&MS yay..lol. then um. i came home came inside and talked to josh some more. then went outside with amy n alli, how fun, then me amy n alli helped mom n dad cover the pool,then me n amy n alli went up to lil johns house n johnathan was there..he is kinda hot..but mean..lol lil john was stripping it was gross..then um i came home and here i am..man i cant take this fucking house anymore..i have a psycho mom and a drunk dad i hate it so much. well im done for now bye bye <33 and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

hey [19 Sep 2004|12:07pm]     there sexy..i know..lol just so every one knows those pics down there from yesterday..tori drew for me with her awsome skills oh how i love her mucho!! 1 loves an excuse to get hurt and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

my day..boy whata day [18 Sep 2004|08:54pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | greenday-american idiot ] My Day Overal Sucked Major Balls! I Woke Up To Amy And Mom  Screaming And Fighting Becoz Mom Told Amy She Cant Hang Out With Porker AnyMore So Amy Was Pissed, But Who Would Wana Hang Out With Porker Any Who? Not Me.Any Way Amy Was Crying So I Went n Comforted My Lil Sister.Then She Was Telling Me About How Alex Likes It When She Looks Him In His Eyes, And Stuff,She Likes Him And He Told Me He Likes Her And Me,But I Doubt It, I Think He Is Mad At Me,That Makes Me Sad But I'll Get Over It,Im Tired Of Being All Childish I Need To Grow Up And Not Let Things Get To Me So Much. But Any Whos..My Mom Was Bein A Real Bitch Today She Wouldnt Stop Yelling It Piss's Me Off. Alex Told Me That He Likes Me But He Dosnt Think He Should BeCause I Never Belive Him. I Do Belive Him,And He Also Said Becoz I Dont Care, I Do Care But I Get Sick Of Talking About Cossondre Or However You Spell It, I Realy  Like Him And I Guess I Get Jealous...Oh God..Well Ill Stop Maken Myself Look Like An Idiot Now. Bye <3333   11 loves an excuse to get hurt and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

fuck [18 Sep 2004|11:50am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | him-razorblade kiss ] dude i swear i fucking hate my life everytime i like someone one..noo they never like me back i mean why would they there is nothing to like about me anyway.i mean the boy i like likes my siste not me..you know how bad that makes me feel?..i feel like an idiot i mean, he was prolly just talking to me to get to my sister.. i mean that truly hurts.im so done im not going to like anyone anymore i mean i dont need a dude to make me happy, im just as fine on my own.. ommmg im so fucking pissed ahhhhhhhh and he got me so mad that yesterday i started a bad habit again, and andrea and gary know what that is. and i cant tell him what it is, becaause he would probly get pissed, well he probly wouldnt seems how he probly hates me just like every dude ive ever liked..why dont i just go kill myself it would solve all my problems and all everyone else's..=( 2 loves an excuse to get hurt and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

bad actors.with badd habits [17 Sep 2004|08:35pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | bright eyes-lover i dont have to love ] hey hey, whata day, omg i had a test in math today! i totaly forgot. but i dont think i did to bad bc you you know im so smart! well anyway mr.lo kept yellin at me bc me n tab kept talkin. he was all like now thats why i dont let you two sit together blah blah blah..um i had SCIENCE after that..we did alot of writeing. yea..and we did a notebook check i passed i just didnt have highlighters i mean i never do..lol..umm then i had AMERICAN GOVERMENT..i like that class.. MR.ROLLER is the best ever. we had to go over the handbook for the whol 3a..yea then i had lunch..how fun we went outside for lunch today. and i had a water n i turned it upside down n put it in the hole on the table n me ashley anders katelyn beaty and tabbi were hitting it at each other..lol..then i went back to mr roller...and we wrote definitions..how fun..then i had gym OMFG the pacer test..oh no..but i didnt do all that bad i did up until 21 when i just stopped i could kept going but im lazy..lol..when the teacher took my heart rate it was 174 n she was like u gotta quit smoken grl n i was like wtf?????..yea janets heart rate was over 200..she shoulda exploed!!!!!!!! ahhh. then i uh..went home...and yea we got taco bell how nice, but now my tummy hurts..=(..my mom was bein a bitch today..she kept yelling for no fuckin reason..ugh..i hate it when she is like that..stupid mom...um what else happend..um nothing..tell me if you like my new lj layout k?..well cOMMENT BITCHS!!!!!!! <33333 1 loves an excuse to get hurt and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

me encanta andrea mucho mucho lots! [15 Sep 2004|10:36pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | twiztid-serial killas ] i love you! well anywhos. my day was good i guess in a way...idk..well hm... i went to my third new math class today how nice. i like this one the best, becuase tabi is in it and so is steph n so is alicia!! yay i know ppl in this new class of mine!! wha hoo!!! any ways. we did stuff in math nothing neat but i got asigned to a calculater how nice im number 82 woot woot!! amd then i went to home room boreing as usual. then um i had SPANISH, but i already knew what he was saying bc i took spanish one last year i just failed it..so i have to retake it and it makes me feel like one smart cookie! lol. then um. i had music. yea how fun 3 whole periods of music..we were watching some lame movie the whole hours! its about mozart!..oh joy. then um..i had lunch it was ok o guess...it was funny tho bc this chica burped and i didnt wana smell it so i was holding my nose and i forgot i was holding my nose..stupid katie was maken fun of me for holden my nose. i didnt wana smell it...eww...lol..then i had english that class is lame my old english class was way better!! yes it was!!and then it was time to come home. i was talking to tabi n flo..and me n tabi thought that he was dead..so she calls me 630 in the morning talking about it and i said "i think he is dead on a street corner under a old bench" but he was really in the hospital..he told me n tab at first that he was there for a neck ingury but then later he said yea i went to the hospital for a cold but turns out i had a neck injury. LIER..oh oh oh he said he would by me my cigarettes so in your face alex i  won u lost. lol alex is so hot sexy!!..yes he is!!..well then umm i dont feel like typen about moms school so lets move forward to when i got home. um i waited for mom to come back from the gym bc we were goin to the mall.. n court decided she would copy us and go with her mom..stupid chica!n i got stuff yay but no shoes yet...boo!..nd then stuff happend n yea..nd the end   alex is hot sex! <33 1 loves an excuse to get hurt and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

poems <3 [13 Sep 2004|10:37pm] cold night blood running down my hand, into the dry sand, my soul was day but now is night, i fear that i have so much fright. walking out of the beach into the cold dark street, shivering step by step as the the pavment touches my feet, my hands were pail but now are red, as i turn the door to see whats in his bed. the smell of dead love runs in my veins, all he ever did was cause pain, crying all that was left of me fell to the floor, with wet tears i asked if he was going to hurt me more. as he ran over to say sorry for what he had done, it was to late the light had already been shuned, as i sat up got up to leave, he tried for a strong plea. i threw a hand up for a sign of stop, then pushed him to the floor as he drop, then it shut bothe doors, i turned and said no more. then an epidemick of light struck, then all fear was tucked, all the lighting went in to my hair, i then decided this game would be fair. as i reached my door, the madness came out of my core, i knew the game would turn fun, as i reached in the chest and pulled out the gun. first i would go to her house, inside i was like a mouse, the first shot was fired, there i knew i wouldn't retire. then again at his door, once more i fell to the floor, i wondered if this was the way, then i knew it had to be this day. still to this night no one knows who shot him. but all i can say it that is revenge is sweet and death is a bitch i am the sweetes bitch you ever met!!! ________________________________________________________ my cup of pain it feels like im dead a pile of nails 4 a bed a cup of sarrow in the morning a cup of hate in the afternoon and a cup of pain at night it all goes down like water it all swims through my veins i cut for it to pour out like a foutian to follow the trail it leads right up to the gates of hell and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

i <3 ya ** [13 Sep 2004|07:55pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | ac/dc-money talks ] hey whats up slick?   anyways. on to my day. phs office ppl r fags they changed my schedule. stupid fags. now i have gym first period on a days..omg i hate that and then i have algebra 1 mod 2 on a days and b days. and on b days i have bio first class. how lame. im in vickys gym class yay,and in rebecca's.whoo.some girl thinks she knows who i am but i dont know who the fuck she is. she came up to me and was all like are you kaytee..and i was like yesm and she said i know you hey whats up. and i was like.ugh DO I KNOW YOU??. anyway im in lae lais math class and megan wingate is in that class to. how nice.but i hate that class i liked my old math class with mr "sir-gay". i learned stuff this new class i like fall asleep in and i know for a fact ill fail it. i mean this ladys room smells like fuckin bo and she is so fat and she has pit stains...eww.after that i had music. that teacher looks like a cat if you ask me. he is short. and chubby but his stomache is chubby and thats it. he is so ugly. and we got new seats so i dont sit next to kaytee anymore =(. on my right there is this werid kid with shaggy hair and to my left there is this hott dude with a buzz cut. lol we were watching this movie where you have to right down all the images you see and it went by like in a sec and it was hard. i failed i think i have bad memory unless i think its important then i member it =). lol the i had lunch it was fun. why the hell was alex in my lunch tho, he isnt normaly there. he like came and sat on me then pushed me outta the way . stupid cunt face! then he was tellin me about how my eyes r blue today,and i was like noo and caity was like yes they are!.  and i was all like ooh yay. and then alex said my pink hair looks pretty everyone loves it yay! then i had spanish, that teacher is werid i know like 3 ppl in that class but idk them well i just know who queen is bc he is tabbis ex. ew he looks like a fish! and katie haywood or w.e bc she used to sit near me in lunch last year and mike bower EWW i hate him. he is so freakin ugly annd annoying!!! and theres this girl who i sit next to april she seems pretty cool, but that teacher is psycho i swear. we were playing simon says in spanish. i got out every time bc i suck at spanish!!! and hm what else oh my spanish teacher had to leave the room for like a few minutes so this lady came in to watch our class. and  i swear she had no chin all fat. yuck.l ol well after that i was walkin outta class and i saw ashliegh.s so i walked with her and ashley.a outside.ashleigh was talking about how hawthorne heights is gonna be at some place with someone else and that we should go, bc we love emo music and stuff..or w.e idk what che said i cant member. lol. then um i was waiten for my bus outside with ashleigh and ashley, and i got on the bus and got off the bus lol..and was walkin to moms school and i saw george and he was like hey kaytee and i ignored him n he said it again and i was like what do you want SHESH!! and he said what took you so long and i was like well i had to get on the bus wait.. wait...get off the bus and walk..and walk...and walk..lol so then we went to pic amy up. omfg courtney is turning into a whore! ew. lol.then um. i came home and got on the pooter, then i went downstairs and watched malibos most wanted. then daddy came home and i went to office depot with him. bc amy broke the keyboard downstairs what a fag!and i got them ice breakers liquid ice things.. ick there werid tasteing lol. then um i came home and made my brochure. for american goverment. how fun im part of the GOOG (get out of goverment) how nice.and um here i am writeing about my wonderful day. oh and there is this really hot emo dude in my school he is tall and skinny he has REALLY dark brown hair and its short on the sides and long on the top. and it has this big blonde hight light in the middle SO FREAKIN HOTT AHHHHHHH lol. i still have to do my math home work oh joy =). <333-kt alex is sexy </3dude ive bee listening to ac/dc alot lately, i mean i always listen to them but ive listened to them alot more lately,lol im such a loser!! and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

alex is so hott [12 Sep 2004|11:23pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | esham-sunshine ] Alex is so hott. oh so hott. and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

stupid.chick [12 Sep 2004|09:04pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | greenday-minority ] hi. psht. alex reads my lj...i didnt know he did. i shouldnt right about him in here again..but. idk. he said that i should follow my "heart" and do what feels right. well it feels right to like him. but i dont know, he has a girlfriend. so no point. and i mean like cory said i cant just tell myself not to like him, thats not fair. but its not fair to me to be a childish bitch and act retarded just bc i like him. and he dosnt like me and he has a gf and likes her ALOT. so if he's happy then i guess i am to =(. what else..hm. i did like nothing to today. i cleaned my room..and thats like it. oh and i talked to josh like all day on the pooter. yay,and..well.. i dont know. yes i still like alex..i do and thats that. yay. i guess. <33333333 kt and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

..you wana wear a hat. WHAT.how you want ya eyelids open or shut?!?.. [11 Sep 2004|10:01pm] hey well today was better. i didnt talk to ask once witch is helping me with the fact that i cant like him anymore.and my day was overal just better.i watched stuart little 2. wha hoo!! lol then me n my madre went to the mall..it was fun. i got the right gages for my ear or however you spell it.its an 8 gage..not that cool but oh well..lol..well hhm..and i got a new purse at old navy..lol its like a fuzy zebra peint =).and the inside of its.?NEON YELLOW!! lol. how hot is that?! and i got a lip gloss.and a shower gel. yay. oh and i got pink hair dye..oh i know im the coolest chick around! lol..well hm what else. i went out to dinner with madre amy courtney and padre..and me n courtney and amy were talking and we wanted to play naked twister and i screamed i wana play naked twister out loud as a joke and these old ladys turned and looked out me funny =(. n then we were singing yellow card..it was so funny. by the way we were sitting at a dif table then mom n dad how cool!.lol well hm.. i think thats it. oh and i still like alex..how i wish i didnt tho. </3</3</3</3</3</3 and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

ah [10 Sep 2004|11:47pm] everything is wrong..why do i always like someone that i shouldnt and i know i cant have. i just end up getting upset..and sad..stupid emo kid!!! =( </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 2 loves an excuse to get hurt and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

hey there [08 Sep 2004|05:45pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | matchbook romance-my eyes burn ] hey, i dont update this thing alot bc..my computer downstairs is always taken (ahem AMY) so i cant get on it to update and my pooter is a retard and always gets attacked with pop ups.so i dont normaly do it unless i can..so there is my explanation..lol well anywho's my day was pretty nice. i had soo much fun in algebra with ashley and jordan..ot was funny ashley drew a dick onto jordans binder and he saw it and his eyes got all big an was like what da fuck.it was funy..yea..then nothing really happend nothing..i think this boy in my moms school likes me or something bc everytime he see's me after school..he talks to me..yesterday he was like hey! my brother likes them and has a shirt that says that!! and today he comes up to me and was like hey! look at my cool rock!! and look!! SAME SHOES!! lol..he is little like maybe 9 or 10 he is soo cute (as in aw he is so cute like a baby)..hah..well thats it..idk if i still like alex i mean I REALLY LIKE HIM!! but he has a gf so i dont se the point i mean he dosnt like me..and he dose have a gf so why should i really like him ..if there isnt a point to it..lol either way im going out with chuck even tho i dont wana. thanks to tabbi..ahh lol..well um i think its over..so buh bye SO YOU THINK YOU CAN LOVE ME AND LEAVE ME TO DIE? OOH BABY!! YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME BABY!!! and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

hey [05 Sep 2004|10:35pm] hm my day.. well friday i got my bottom braces on and they hurt like fuck and they still do. then i went over tabi's house i was saposed to spend the night but...nooo her dad said she was punished so he took me home after the mall. then i was on the pooter. i went to the fair saturday, we were with emmy and mrs nancy. i met emmys bf he is a cutie but his friend is so fuckin hot! yea we came home and emmy spent the night!! yay!! omg me and emily got so wasted. it was fun i couldnt member anything. until amy told me. hah. well this morning i found out that amy asked alex out for me! omg..eh but she said is he didnt have a gf.and he dose. oh and i told him i liked him today yay for me!..he dosnt like me tho ovcourse. no one ever could. but anyway. i went to my aunt chrissis cook out today it was fun i guess..but i was bein foloowed by a baby eh!..but i came home and got on the pooter hopeing to talk to alex..but noo..and not alex bruns i know thats what you all are thinking but not alex bruns..no ew!.lol well i think thats is so buh bye <33 -kayee CRUSHING SO FUCKING HARD 1 loves an excuse to get hurt and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

... [02 Sep 2004|09:00pm] i list my day dont feel like typen it.. hm *woke up *ate breakfest *math*homeroom *spanish *music*lunch *gym *bus *dads car *guitar store *got my guitar! =) *came home *ate dinner *homework *talked on the pooter..yay **here i am now and to hurt.do you like to hurt?!!

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